i'm losing control of myself. it's hard to stand the same kinds of mental debility, which assaults me periodically. i'm too sleepy to get up, and at the same time, i'm too awake to fall asleep. i'm restless and uneasy. i'm afraid of something that i'm not sure it really exist. all i can do is just to curl myself up in my blanket, putting up with something that i don't know what it is all about. tomorrow i'll go see my doc.
