i'm kinda feeling sad. i feel so lonely. i dunno well why i feel like being in deep despair, all alone at the bottom of the vast ocean of the internet.
there are so many people i know and some know me too, making communities here, there and everywhere. so many people's discussions, communications, talks, tweets are in front of me, flowing like a flooding river. i just stand at the bank in the rain of words without an umbrella, just watching the roaring stream of the communication. i can do nothing but just stand still, not having any courage to catch up the flow of words, much less to dive into it. i'm a miserable coward. i'm miserable to feel i'm miserable.
i wanna cry in the rain, i wanna shed tears, and wash this sadness and loneliness away, but i can't. if i could cry, how much easier i might be now, or i'm not sure if it works or not.
