mame3zok雑記

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first contact

my daughter's boyfriend arrived at our home today. he's going to stay with us for several days. this is my first experience. this is the first time in my life that i see my daughter's boyfriend. ever since when i became a father of a daughter, that was more than twenty years ago, i've understood my reason tells me that the day like today is to come. and today is the day, with my feeling embarrassed.
i was, in advance, informed by my daughter about him and his visit. my wife and i were busy preparing for him to stay. my wife looked enjoying preparing, looking forward to meeting him. but to tell the truth, i was totally at a loss. i didn't know what to do. i just followed commands that my wife and daughter made. i just could not sort out my feelings.
today, when i came home from work, he was already here. i was introduced and the boy introduced himself to me. we had dinner together, talking about some kinds of everyday affairs. he seemed to be a polite, sensible young man. nothing looked strange. that was all.
as a dad who has daughters, of course, i know my daughters are old enough to have some boyfriends. still i find myself feeling in a sense of embarrassment, having mixed feeling about the existence of "my daughter's boyfriend" in our home.
i still recall the moment when my girlfriend's father (now my father-in-law) and i first met. i remember my heart was beating hard in the middle of rising tension. i wonder if he felt that kind of thing today.